"Follow your curiosity" I can't remember where I read this or did I hear it? If you've been following my blog then you know I'm totes obsessed with personal development and creative entrepreneurship. I devour blogs, podcasts, YouTube videos, and books on how to manage my anxiety, optimize my life, and flourish as a "creative". (Sometimes I feel icky using this word as a noun but whatever it's all encompassing and works so I'm just gonna keeping using it. Deal with it!) Well, it was in one of those mediums that I came across this piece of advice that has really stuck with me and has become my current motto.
I was recently in the running for a full-time position at an advertising firm. It seemed like a great position at an exciting creative company. And while I love the freedom of my current lifestyle, I found the financial security of having a set income, along with benefits, quite appealing. Yet, I remained a tad fearful of the creative and time constraints of an 8 to 5.
When I learned I was one of two finalist, I put myself in the hands of God and the universe. "This or something better," as Christine Hassler says. If it was meant to be it would happen.
I didn’t get the job. In the rejection e-mail they told me they were very impressed with me and would consider me for feature openings/freelance work. I felt like the runner-up on The Bachelor. I’m getting this speech about how you love but I’m still not getting the final rose. I was bummed at first. The disappointment quickly turned to asking myself “well what next?”
Perhaps like all Bachelor runner-ups, I too am destined for greater things!
I’ve decided this is a sign from the universe that I should seriously explore the innate attraction I feel towards entrepreneurship. I’ve dabbled in it with my freelance work of course, but I feel like I’ve never 100 percent gone after it. Mainly because I’m not quite sure what my exactly my business venture would be! I like writing and I’m good at it but I’m also pretty sure straight up freelance writing isn’t the precise route I want to continue to trot along.
I have a lot interests. I love aesthetics. I love words. I love design. In a nutshell, I love creative self-expression. I’m not sure exactly sure how I’m going to turn my varied interests into a business but I’m open and receptive to the universe throwing some big projects my way. I feel ready. I’m not going to sit around and wait for something to come my way. To use Christine Hassler’s terminology again, I’m ready to co-create with the universe.
I’ve been looking for my purpose when all this time I should have been following my curiosity.
A little painting. A little photography maybe. I’m ready to try everything my lil’ heart desires and see where it leads. Let’s go!